God says love your life

Okay so it has been more then a couple of years since I have written anything on this blog, and a lot has happened since then. *deep breath* I am now a 20 year old student, that has had many trials. I found and lost my first boyfriend in about three months, went through some spiritual warfare, was in a mental hospital on and off over two months, did something horrific to one of my family, and am now awaiting a verdict from the courts on that said thing I did to that family member. Life has been nothing but a long downhill plunge over the last four years. I find it very nerve racking that it took this four year plunge for me to be where I am right now. I am in a coffee shop on their wifi having to write this, and let me say that even with all these people going in and out hurrying to go about their busy lives I am finding it peaceful. Which is something I wouldn't have ever thought before. I can think this and be at peace with myself and my surroundings because of my wake up call about three months ago. I was kicked out of my home, and my parents had to because of my trouble with the law, I am very grateful that my aunt and uncle had a spare room that I could stay in during these times. I was struggling money wise, didn't have a job, had no determination, and was extremely overweight. Since then I have found two jobs, just bought a car, am more self-motivated, and have lost almost 30 lbs. The reason I am disclosing this to you my reader is to tell you not to let this happen to you, find something or someone to live for. I was only living for myself and no one else and that was my undoing. The only person how got me through this is God, he changed me and now I love this new me. I wish i had listened to him earlier in my live, maybe this all wouldn't have happened. But then I wouldn't be writing to you just to let you know; Love your life. Let God lead it and follow him, he has it planned all out for you. You just need to follow his footsteps. Now if you have to go searching for his footprints, you aren't following his path his path for you is simple. Love your live and live it for him and he will guide you. God will tell you when to turn, when to go off the path, but it is all to glorify and honor him. And in doing this for him you will be blessed in your live ten fold. He wanted me to love my live and I threw it back in his face. I hurt my true father, I was rebelling, and that hurt him, myself, and the people around me. I want to go back in time and just change everything about me from the start, that is not his will. For I wouldn't be who I am today without all those trials and downfalls. Love you and love your live. God Bless, Patches

Everythings Changing for the Best I Think?

Myself that's all I ever thought about. This is mine that is mine. My life was all about me. Well since I lived my life like this I hurt my friends and my family, and thanks to a very close and very very very good friend who gave me a good slap on the face of my selfish reality. I'm changing my ways!! With the help of God and my good friends I'm going to be humble and more thoughtful of peoples feelings and needs.

Thanks Miss A.T. for the slap. And I'm so sorry for my behavior for the last couple of years. Thanks so much for your help in helping me refind the path. LUV YA!!! Oh and luve ya 2 MOM!!

A whole new ME

Hi I would like to introduce the new me. Right now I'm feeling all Emo and moody. My dad say it's just me trying to grow up and figure myself out, but I'm not so sure that's what it is. I think it's because my whole life sucks right now. Grandpa died on May,1 2010. I have a job and I'm stressed form time and space. MY whole life is starting to go down the drain and soon it will be time for collage and I have freaking clue what I'm going to do with life now and in the future. I guess I'll have to wait and see how God is going to change me and what he's going to do.

Life Sucks

My life has been so boring the last couple of weeks nothing much except for a friends surprise 16th birthday and going to a youth camp on the 5-7, but other than that there hes been nothing exciting has been going on in this house. Grandpa still has the control of the T.V remote, doesn't care about my mom's nerves, and doesn't care if his dog goes to the bathroom on our floor. So my life is pretty much a really bad dream that I can't wake up from.

I'm finaly sixteen!

On Tuesday, Jan. 5 I officially turned sweet sixteen. So I told my parents all I wanted to do was spend a day with my two favorite BFFs, and we went out and played indoor glow-in the-dark mini golf then went to go see Avatar in I-MAX 3-D, which was totally amazingly awesome, then came home and had cake and ice cream. But it was the best sweet sixteen birthday I will always remember.

Flustered

Hello and welcome back to "Ramblings of a Teenager" on today's post I will be talking about me being flustered at my FAMILY! Like my sister who thinks she knows everything, and thinks she's all mighty and all powerful. My Grandpa who won't stop yelling at me and my beloved sibling for doing nothing at all and I would like to call him some words that I can't even type, because of some very strict rules in my house hold, but you get the idea. But tis the season to be merry so I'm just going to be a good little angle and ignore him until he kicks the bucket.
This has been another update on "Ramblings of a Teenager" until next time. Merry Christmas.

Back to blogging

Hello again people of the cyberspace network,
I'm back to blogging on blogger instead of facebook. So let me get you up to date. School is getting harder ever year, brothers are getting even more annoying, sister is plastering her art all over the bedroom walls, and parents are ganging up on my but as usual. Plus we have three new additions to the family living under the roof, my grandpa, his cat, and his abused dog. Grandpa finicky, stubborn, smokes and is all the rest that old people are, his dog licks the carpet and gets into the cat box when we're not looking, his cat is cute but hates to be petted or looked at. The good thing is that it gets along with our other two cats. So there is a update on Ramblings of a Teenager